Worst Teacher EVER

That's me. I am the WORST TEACHER.

If I had tried to homeschool my children, we'd all be dead. I would have exploded from the frustration and taken them all out in a blazing fireball.

Girly-girl is taking the HCA course at VCC. She's smart. I know she is. So far, she's gotten 90+ on the couple of tests they've taken. But the homework assignments are KILLING ME.

GG is a slow worker when it comes to homework. She has learning disabilities and is an Aspie just like her brother. School output has always been an issue for her, especially anything interpretive (which I understand, I always hated that crap, too).

Tonight, I've been struggling to help her and not say the nasty things that are on the tip of my tongue. I've already said a couple things I should not have. She doesn't remember anything they talked about in class. She doesn't know what the question means. She's doesn't remember what she did or said in the exercise and the point is to write out what she did and said and the verbal techniques and communication skills and OMG, RAWR!

I? AM NOT A PATIENT PERSON. NO, I AM NOT. I love my children, but there is a reason that I am not a teacher. I am not patient at all, I don't get why other people don't get how to do things. I have always been able to figure shit out pretty quickly and get annoyed when other people don't after I explain it to them. This is an ongoing issue for me at work, but at least they pay me to deal with the idiots there.

You would think I could be loving and patient with my daughter. BUT NO. My trying to tutor my kids is a BAD IDEA. I realized this when they were still in elementary school, which is why I paid for a real-live tutor to come in my house because me doing that would have turned into child abuse. I know my limits, and that is one of them.

Sadly, I don't think I can get her a tutor for this. Dear god. I hope I don't end up giving her PTSD in my effort to help.

Girls night achieved!

Sushi was eaten.

Beads were used to create pretty things.

Cider was imbibed.

Also, Miss Boots really wanted to be part of the moment, and while kitties are one of my favourite things, they are not so mixy with beads. Or beading wire. Or thread.

Funny how I just had to pick her up a lot.

I need to come see trystel more than once a year.


in 48 hours...

... I will be drinking Okanogan Pear cider with moosaic4 and trystel and trying to make beady things.

I suspect that my success with creating beaded things may be inversely proportional to the amount of cider I imbibe. Or maybe the opposite will happen. I should experiment and see what happens. Possibly I will talk more than bead. I bet I could log it in a spreadsheet and make a graph.

OMG I AM A GIANT NERD. but you already knew that.

Can it please be Thursday now?


Seriously. I'm this close.

I was so upset this morning that I was in tears. The kind of tears that come from overwhelming frustration and anger. I hate those kind, they make me feel so stupid and helpless.

This guy cannot communicate. He SUCKS at communicating. I don't have a fucking CLUE how on earth he managed to get a job as a PEOPLE LEADER, because FUCK. Really, there is just NO OTHER WAY TO EXPRESS THE UTTER DEPTHS OF MY READINESS TO RAGE QUIT ON HIS ASS.

Except I like my job and love the rest of my team and actually have a fair amount of job satisfaction most the time. It's just him. FUCKING FUCK.

Have I expressed my extreme gratefulness that he lives on the East Coast, diametrically opposed to me? So I don't actually have to see his annoying face every day, and our schedules only overlap for about 3-4 hours each day.


This weekend cannot come quickly enough.

OMG ! Let's go buy some SHOES!

Ok, anyone who knows me is aware that is SO NOT ME. But sometimes, even if you don't care about what the fashion industry insists women MUST HAVE TO BE AWESOME, from time to time you need a new pair of shoes or a new bag.

Retail Therapy...Collapse )

Car repairs & Conflikt

I am very happy to have my new (to me) Ford Taurus, because I like that car SO MUCH MORE than my previous one, but faugh. Car Repair Cost Suck! I thought I should get the oil gasket changed before I drove to Seattle (oil leaks are bad) and they told me when I bought the car it would probably be around $300, but it's actually going to be $500. I have no idea if that is horrible or reasonable.

On the happy side - only three more days till I'm hanging our with moosaic4, trystel and tuto! It's been too long - last year at this time, actually!

Jazzy Girl is coming down laaaate Friday night to hang out on the weekend. She's never been to Conflikt, and I think she will enjoy it. She's bummed about missing Alec's concert on Friday, so I am hoping we can catch him in a circle sometime Saturday and she can hear him.

I have decided I am making a Canadian Comfort Kit for the interfilk auction. It will be filled with goodies you can only buy in Canada - Kraft Dinner (just not the same at Mac & Cheese!) Canadian Cheezies, Habitant soup, Coffee Crisps, Ketchup & All Dressed Chips - basically, yummy foods you can only get north of the 49th. I am hoping that it will be a fun novelty and will bring in a few bids.

Hey, mercury973, do you want to meet up and do breaky/lunch again this year? It almost becoming a tradition for us - I think we've done it a couple years in a row now.

Three more days!


Snowflake Challenge - FINAL POST - Day 15

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HAHA! I DID THEM ALL! Not all on time, but I am actually doing the last one on the last day and am all caught up, OMG I ROCKED THIS!

Ahem. Wow. I got a little worked up there. Eh. I take my accomplishments where I can find 'em.

Day 15
In your own space, create your own challenge. What’s something you want to see more people doing in fandom? Is there something fun you've tried that you think other people would enjoy if they gave it a go? Dare your friends to try it out, and have fun with it.

Well. My knee jerk reaction here is to tell you people to WRITE ME MORE McSHEP DAMMIT! Because there is NOT ENOUGH, SERIOUSLY why can't you GET ON THE BALL ALREADY!? Ok, yeah, it's been off the air for 5 years, so what? People have moved on to other fandoms? WHAT? I am not DONE with them yet!


I used to have a lapel pin that said, "Anything I ever let go of had claw marks all over it." Yeah.

ANYWAY. Since I realize that the universe and all people in it do not bend to my will simply because I want them to (ain't that the sad truth) I will at least challenge everyone to do what we've all been talking about doing the last few years...


Reply to a post on your flist. Review an episode of a show you just watched. Start a meta discussion. Write a drabble. Also, tell us how you're doing. If your boss is an idiot. That the people on your morning commute can't drive. That you'ld like to send the dog next door to the moon. I WANT TO HEAR FROM YOOOOOOOO!

Or, write me McShep. I'm always good with McShep.

Strangely enough, melagan is organizing this little fest over at romancingmcshep coming up in February, so if you have nothing better to do, you can always join in.

Snowflake Challenge Day 14

WOW! All caught up and one done on the correct day for a change!

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Day 14
In your own space, post recs for at least three fanworks that you did not create.

OH! HA! SO EASY! Well, except... only THREE!?!?

Ok, if I *MUST choose...

First, let it be said I recommend everything that sgamadison ever wrote. Just sayin'. But it doesn't seem fair to only rec her stuff, so here are a few others, though I am sure that they are already well known and loved to most people on *MY* flist.

Uhm, probably doesn't really need to be said, but everything here has a McShep flavour. Oooh, big surprise I know.

Not In Kansas Anymore..."
Okay, this is a whole series. Whatever, I'm cheating. These fics are a crossover of NCIS/SG1/SGA and so very interesting. The first piece is heavy on the NCIS, but they end up on Atlantis. Pretty fun, great characterization and some DAMN fine story telling. I stayed up waaaaaay too late reading this one a couple nights in a row.

- this is the 3rd in velocitygrass's Compatible Engagement series, set in lavvyan's John!farr verse. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the world build and character development in this as we see behind John's choices and why Rodney built the button. I love Rodney's mom and John's dad and the dance they do around each other. I love that Rodney is willing to give up something he wants to desperately because he loves JOHN and he want's JOHN to have the freedom to choose. Gourgeous writing.

Checkmate Verse
- this sweet little story by beadattitude is still one of my faves. John as a cat? Pure crack! Except... not. It's actually very sweet and telling and we learn a lot about Rodney and John during the time John is in his cat form. And oh, *SO* hilarious seeing Ronon trying to interact with John as a cat. I thought I would die laughing. The resolution of the story is sweet - such a lovely, *lovely* ending.

There you go. If you haven't already read them, why the heck not!?

Snowflake Challenge Catch-up - Day 12 & 13

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Day 12
In your own space, talk about what you bring to fandom. It can be something tangible, or not.

Years and years ago, I organized the Pretender Fanfic awards for a few years. I ran a small fic archive that was mostly Pretender and Spuffy. These days, I mostly write fic. I wish I wrote more songs, but I'm just not that talented.

In the real world, I've helped with various conventions in various positions, but the last few years between work and other things, my time has been more limited. My biggest (only) real contribution to RL fandom right now is the Conflikt songbook. Man, I've been doing that for 8 years now!

Day 13
In your own space, talk about a creator. Show us why you think they are amazing.

I think that sgamadison is one of the most talented writers I have ever had the pleasure to meet and read. Her storytelling is fantastic, and when I read her work, I can hear and see the characters I love so clearly, it could be on TV. She breathes life into John and Rodney, Sherlock and Watson and whoever else she writes.

I know that people sometimes support their writer friends by buying a few of their books, even if they don't care one way or another about the writing. Well, let me tell you, I happily paid for her work because she's really talented and I've loved her original characters every bit as much as her fic.

Also, she is one of the nicest and most genuine people I've ever had the good pleasure to meet in fandom or out of it.

/fangirl moment.

Snowflake Challenge Catch-up - Day 10 & 11

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Day 10
Stretch yourself a little and try something new. Go play in a new fandom or with a new pairing. Try working in a new medium.

I don't have the wherewithal to venture into a new fandom, but I think I would have to classify my recent foray into Artist Trading Cards are working in a new medium. There are still more things I want to try out in an artistic paper format, and I'm more willing to venture into different fandoms that way than I am to try and write a story.

Day 11
In your own space, post a rec for fannish and/or creative resources.

Oh, that's hard. Ok, if I am doing research for an SGA fic, I don't have a specific place I go all the time. I use the wikis for basic info:


But after that, I mostly just practise my Google-fu. Oh, and outsideth3box, I ask her things ALL the TIME. If she doesn't know, she usually knows who to ask and find out.

Not terribly helpful, but that's what I do.


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