Geek by Shaddyr

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My Fic

Pretty much all my fic can be found on AO3.

Transformative Works Policy

I grant permission for anyone to create fan works based on stories I have written. Feel free to remix a fic, write a sequel, create fan art, or podfic my works. I simply ask that I be credited for my original work that inspired yours and that you link back to it.

I'd love to see what you did, so please link me to your work if you're willing. It would be great if it was posted on AO3 so I could add it to 'works inspired by this one', but that is not a deal breaker.

Podfic: if any small modifications to the words/dialog are needed to make it flow better, that's fine with me. Please do make mention that you have adapted/altered/modified the work in you podfic 'notes'.

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The insanity continues

I’ve been incommunicado for a while. It’s been nice to have a break from school; next class starts in July. Work has been nonstop; amazingly, I got a raise. I’m officially off the board of directors; I kept getting nominated for another term, but I declined. I’m getting better at saying no.

So, my kid is getting married. I got very little notice; it’s this coming Friday. On one hand, less time to stress. OTOH, I have a little over a week to plan a wedding.

I’m a little preoccupied at the moment.

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Really odd feedback...

I am at somewhat of a loss. Up until this point, my fanfic has generally received what I consider good feedback or comments on stories. However, my the crossover story has now earned two comments that left me in the position of not being sure how to react.

The first one: so, if a person leaves a comment stating they didn't like my characterization, I take that at face value. Fair enough - they may view a character very differently from me. Or they may feel the plot is weak or implausible. Again, the reader is entitled to their feelings and opinions. I once had someone take great exception to a Pretender story I wrote where Jarod goes dark. He drugs and almost sexually assaults Miss Parker. I was exploring what might happen if he snapped; since that man was abused by The Centre since childhood, I felt it was possible. A reader strongly and vehemently disagreed with my characterization. I was totally ok with that and not all offended.

That isn't what happened here. Rather than taking issue with out-of-character writing or bad plotting, the reader seemed upset with the character, that it was their fault things went wrong. The character should have stuck to their assigned place and not done something different. It left a bad taste in my mouth because it was a female, teenage character. I have become more sensitized to how much vitriol there is out there against female characters, so it rather came off to me like they were saying this female teenager is not allowed to change or make mistakes or errors in judgement or be imperfect.

It bothered me much more to have someone blaming this teenage girl than it would have to hear they thought my writing sucked. I don't know if this really makes sense to anyone else, but I felt very defensive on behalf of the character. I didn't really know how to answer, so I just stuck with the 'thank you for reading and commenting' because, hey, they did.

The second one: that is a little closer to home. I have an OC in my story - also a female. Again, teenager, and friends with two teen boys. I pulled aspects of my teenage self into her - one of them being that I sometimes smacked or punched my teen male friends when they were being idiots. Someone left a comment pointing out every time this character attempted to hit or did hit her two friends and then said this abuser should not be allowed to come to Atlantis, that she was a bully and to think about if it had been a male character who did that.


When I was a teen, I knew guys who were as likely to punch me in the arm as I was to punch them, so it didn't seem particularly weird. Plus, I actually *did* think about the time frame this is written in - early 2000's, so about when schools were actually taking notice of students casually smacking each other and frowning on such things, but still - friends who have grown up together have a different dynamic with each other than casual acquaintances. And while I don't typically write characters hitting each other, the fact that she is flicking one friend's ear, smacking the other one for saying something annoying, and kicking one under the table - she's not actually a bully. I'm not saying hitting people is appropriate, but I think bullying is about a power dynamic, and that doesn't exist here.

Getting any kind of feedback is useful - it made me think about what I wrote. I'd already weighed the pros and cons before I wrote it, but I reexamined and reconsidered. And I still would not change her because that's who she is, and by the time she's 23, she's probably not going to punch her friends in the arm any more. But right now, she does. And maybe one of them are going to say, "Gracie! Stop it!" or maybe they won't. I don't know.

Man. People talking about the character you write rather than your writing - it's like people talking about your kids. Weird.

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Waaaaaaay back when I first started writing the HP/SGA Xover story, [personal profile] adafrog and [personal profile] alisanne made some comments in my journal that inspired me. I wrote a scene between Dumbledore and Lily and it was incorporated into the chapter I posted today.

So ladies, this snippet from chapter 15 is dedicated to both of you - thanks for the inspiration!

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Getting there, slowly but surely...

My course is done. DONE! WHOOOO! I am now one course closer to my associate certificate.

I got an 85% on my midterm, a 90% on my final, still waiting for the mark on the group project. Slacker!Dude will most likely get a sucktastic mark because I know that Y and I both gave him the lowest possible review. No idea how he scored us - I'm sure it was poor for me, since I took the opportunity to tell him UNEQUIVOCALLY exactly how I felt shortly before we wrote our reviews of each other.

I know that I talk a big game, but I really don't like having to be aggressive or confront people. I want everyone to be able to get along and work things out - I'm really Hufflepuff hearted with Slytherin ambitions. But. BUT. Sometimes, if you have driven me too far, if you have tasked me beyond the edge of my cope - well. Then all bets are off, asshole, because I am FUCKING DONE with being anyone's doormat. And I will do this thing, right here and right now. Even though my heart is racing and feels like it is literally going to pound right through my chest and I can feel my hands shaking, and my words are tripping over each other because the adrenaline is making it hard for me to speak straight.

Now I just have to figure out what I am taking next. I wanted to take UX/UI Fundamentals, but all the classes are full for this term. The other couple of courses I am thinking about all have classes on days that I am supposed to go on my next business trip. Grr. Argh.


The month of March, I've only written 3 days. Imma try to write some words now. I have this idea for a supplementary chapter and I really want to update my xover story today. Let's see what happens.

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The trials and tribulations of working with a fucktwaddle

I am here purely to bitch.

So, slacker!guy from my project group missed class tonight. Me and YH told the prof we were pretty much done with his bullshit. The Prof wrote him an email reminding him we will be evaluating each other at the end of the course and if the people on his team both give him a bad review for lack of partcipation, it will reflect badly on his mark.

So, I literally just got an email from him asking for any updates on our project. As if YH and I have not been including him on every fucking update and email all along for the last 5 weeks. And he has access to our shared document, which I know because I forced him to log in to it during class a few weeks ago.

I was a little pissed. I wrote back. I would have been far more scathing, but he could turn around and accuse us of not working with him, so I pulled it back a bit.


If you checked the shared google doc, read the notes, checked the group slack, or made any effort to participate, you would already know all the updates that YH and I have made. We have included you on all of our communications and changes. We have asked for thoughts,  feedback, comments... you have given none.

You have made absolutely no meaningful contribution to our project. What, exactly, are you planning to contribute now that YH and I have already done 90% of the work?

Would have rather told him he was a useless fucktwaddle, but didn't want that in writing if it goes as far as an appeal when I give him a zero on his review.

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Work and school whining

Straight up complaining, folks.

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Let's see. What is something good right now? Because I always tell the whiny child, when EVERYTHING IS SO TERRIBLE OMG, that she has to tell me something good.

I have a most awesome coffee cup that my friend B gave me - she's actually the vendor I work with most, and I saw her in Nashville at our bi-annual business review. She brought it for me. It is hand crafted pottery and it is my new fave. Isn't it great?

It is full of chocoloco tea at the moment.

Also! I won two [community profile] fandomtrumpshate auctions I bid in! I made my donation to The Center For Public Integrity this morning. It was the offerings for Person of Interest and Leverage that caught my eye. I am looking forward to seeing what the writers eventually come up with.

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Meme: Kick ass chicks

Been seeing this around all over; now jumping on the bandwagon.

Here is a list of female characters I love:

1. Nyota Uhura
2. Miss Parker
3. Ellen Ripley
4. Private Vasquez
5. Joss Carter
6. Victoria Winslow
7. Hermione Granger
8. Zoë Washburne
9. Samantha Carter
10. Veronica Mars

Give me a number from the below list and I'll answer the question. Or try to.

1. What defining trait draws you to them?
2. Do you have a pairing you prefer for them?
3. Is there a point of canon you would change?
4. 3 sentence ficlet please? (provide prompt)
5. Random 5 things about this one?
6. What is the best point of canon in your opinion?
7. Random crossover crack ficlet please? (choose two of the ladies, or one and provide a second fandom to cross with)
8. How would canon be different without them?
9. Give a shag/marry/cliff trio for the lady.
10. Ask any other question!

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Guitar strings are vicious

I like to pick up my guitar during the week while I am taking a break from work. I put on the kettle, and while waiting for the water to boil for tea, I strum a bit, play a song or two. It's just a little break and it keeps me doing that, "pick it up for at least a few minutes every day" thing.

A few months ago, one of the strings on my slimline Yamaha broke. It's my fave to play because a) slimline and b) it has a built in tuner which is the best thing EVER. But when I went to change the strings, one of the pegs broke. So instead of ordering a new set of pegs, I just started using my second favourite guitar.

Yes, I am that lazy.

A couple days ago, one of the strings on the second favourite broke.

So the desire to change strings was now greater than the laziness that would otherwise induce me to start using the third favourite guitar. Since I have a broken string, I now have a spare peg I can steal for the fave guitar. Also, my tuner sucks and I hate trying to tune that thing, or I probably would just play the third favourite.

Well, the Yamaha just got a blood offering, because that fricking high E string whipped back at me when I was twisting the used strings up in a bundle and impaled my thumb like a fish hook. I tried to jerk free before I realized that. Ouch.

Don't ignore your favourite guitar, folks. I think it was looking for revenge.

In other news, besides making blood sacrifices to my guitar, today I did dishes, made chicken stew in a crockpot and spent several hours on homework. I just posted the chapter that goes with the art [personal profile] danceswithgary made - go look at it, it's beautiful!. And now, I'm going to try and get some writing done (crossing fingers)

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